Wednesday, January 29, 2014

21DSD Day 3

Today was much better than yesterday as far as cravings go. I made a slightly better cup of coffee, but only had enough time this morning to guzzle down half my cup because we were running out the door. Aiden was not late to school and we weren't late to Lincoln's appointment so that is an accomplishment in my book.

My kids on the other hand were a bit of a stressor for me today. Aiden had a hard day at home and at school with listening and following directions so when we got home he did his homework (extra slowly to prolong his tiny bit of freedom) and then spent the rest of the day in his room grounded. In our house when Aiden is "grounded" it means that he is in his room, on his bed, reading books. Not really a terrible punishment because this kid is a bookworm. He did also lose his video game privileges on Sunday (the only day we really allow him to play on the Xbox) and he was sent to bed an hour earlier than normal.

For lunch I really had no idea what I wanted to eat. Nothing really sounded good at all. Ethan always cooks a batch of chicken Sunday for the week so I knew I had a pre-made meal if I could just figure out what I wanted with it. Upon further searching I found that I wanted nachos. The good kind with everything on it. So I made myself a little healthy ghetto nacho bowl - minus the nachos. Chicken breast, guacamole, sour cream, and cheese, with some salt, pepper, and chipotle chili powder. It was way better than I expected it to be! Only after I had shoveled everything in my mouth, did I realize that salad mix would have been amazing as well. So that'll probably end up being tomorrow's lunch as well.

Ethan is out in the field tonight and I didn't really feel like cooking anything major so we had breakfast for dinner again. Eggs with cheese and some bacon.

Something I did discover today. My emotions are going a bit crazy. I cried while watching Tangled this afternoon and teared up looking at pictures of random people's babies. I saw a picture on Facebook of a mom doing skin on skin contact with her triplet girls. They were so cute and teeny! For some crazy reason it made my heart and my uterus ache. Ummmm hello?! I have a 7 month old that takes all the attention at the moment. There can be no more baby fever in this house for a while. Gotta suppress that shit.

Another discovery I have made this afternoon...coconut butter. Holy goodness it is super amazing! Like how have I gone this long and never tasted it before? I want to put it on EVERYTHING. I hope that my new found love for this stuff will help curb any cravings I have during this whole detox shindig.

I also have a headache. Not sure if it's from the detox or if it's from my children. Aiden was trying at every chance he got to weasel his way out of his room and Lincoln is still sick/teething which means he's super fussy. As tired as I am, I don't think I'll be getting to bed early tonight. I never can sleep when Ethan is gone. never have been able to. I complain about his snoring to him all the time, but when he's gone I guess it's too quiet in the room or something. I dunno. Basically I'm saying I love the man and can't live without him. All that mushy lovesick crap.

Speaking of littlest needs a diaper change. Oh the life of a mom. Fun stuff :-)

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

21DSD Day 2

So I'm honestly not really feeling it today. I'm not having cravings, more I just to emotionally eat. Which is probably just as bad. No worse.

Lincoln was woken up at 2:00 am by Ethan rolling him over because he was coughing in his sleep and Ethan thought he was choking. Sweet that he was trying to save his son's life (so he thought?) butttttt then Link decided it was time to wake up and play. Yayyyyyy. With Ethan having to leave for work at 4:30 am and me being the nice wife that I am, I got my warm and cozy self out of bed and took the baby into the living room so that Daddy could sleep. What I thought would be a quick "Oh look these toys are cool, but I'd rather nurse and fall asleep" thing turned into an hour and a half of Link playing in his playpen while I tried read my Kindle and not to pass out from exhaustion. I'm stupid. I should've just slept in the living room while he played.

Anyways, once we were finally in bed around 3:30, Lincoln started to get more and more uncomfortable. Pretty sure he's finally cutting his first tooth because I got bit 3 times last night {How can it hurt that much without him having teeth?! I'm totally scared for what's to come.}and that's never happened before. Plus he now has a fever. Due to the fever, or the pain in his poor baby gums, or because he really just hates me, we were awake about every 45 minutes for the rest of the night until we both gave up and just woke up around 8:00.

Like a zombie I trudged to the kitchen to make myself a nice, hot, BIG cup of joe. Only apparently I made it wrong or something because the outcome was a cup of sludge that couldn't be fixed with copious amounts of coconut milk creamer and sugar...because that's not allowed on the dumb detox. And I will be damned if I give up on the 2nd day. I hate to admit it, but I am terrible at making coffee. It's such a simple thing to do and yet I can never get the formula right. It's always either way too strong or too weak when I make it. That's why on days with my husband makes me's always a good day. For everyone involved.

We ran out of vanilla extract, and we're running low on green-tipped bananas because well, they're delicious. I'm a weirdo because I actually have always preferred green bananas. Once they've turned completely yellow they're too ripe for me. Once they get the brown spots it's time to make banana bread or toss them. Or now make baby food :-) For those of you that have never done this detox, like half the recipes have vanilla of some sort and bananas. It's all about tricking your body into thinking you're getting sugar when you're really not.

By the end of the day I was feeling so defeated and exhausted that by the time dinner rolled around I honestly didn't care about the detox anymore. I wanted to order a pizza just for the simple fact that I could barely function anymore. We knew that wasn't an option for either one of us so instead we tried to figure out
how we could stick to our new diet without having to spend time in the kitchen. Ethan made a pot of coffee just so that we could think enough about food.

After a good 30 minutes of debating what to do I grabbed a cup of coffee (at 6:00 pm so let's hope that doesn't come back to bite me in the butt tonight) and found some willpower. Instead of going out with a sick kid and two irritable and drained adults I grabbed my go-to paleo foods when I can't think of anything else:  bacon and eggs. Our family's tradition is Taco Tuesdays and I knew Aiden would be expecting a taco of some sort. So we had a random quick breakfast for dinner. Aiden got his breakfast tacos. I had 2 eggs, 2 pieces of bacon, and half of a chicken breast. Ethan had eggs and tuna which smelled absolutely awful, but he ate it while I just stared with my nose wrinkled.

I'm proud of myself for not giving in and just saying fuck it. I really do want to succeed and make it the whole 21 days without a cheat. I'm sure the days are going to get harder before they get better so I might as well embrace the suck. Hopefully Lincoln will sleep tonight and tomorrow will be better. For some added inspiration and motivation I will be spending the evening watching videos from PaleoCon. I'm super interested in learning about all things paleo, especially when it comes to kids - which is one of the topics for tonight. Sign up if you're interested too!

Monday, January 27, 2014

21 Days of Detox And Madness

So today begins the 21 Day Sugar Detox for Ethan and myself. I've been wanting to do it for a while but found excuse after excuse as to why we couldn't do it. Finally I have had enough. I am 3 pounds away from being back to my pre-pregnancy weight. Although that is a great accomplishment in itself that I was able to get under my baby weight about 2 weeks after I had Lincoln, I have goals for myself. The main one at the moment is to lose 20 pounds by Lincoln's first birthday in June. I. Will. Make. That. Happen.

It was getting a bit ridiculous with the amount of sugars we have been consuming lately. Breastfeeding has given me intense cravings - more so than when I was pregnant. The main thing I crave? Chocolate and dairy. My favorite go to snack (doesn't matter what time of day) is Ben and Jerry's Coffee Heath Bar Crunch or Peanut Butter M&Ms. Delicious, but moderation has become a curse word in the house. Sooooooo let's stop talking about sweets before I go stomping through the kitchen like Godzilla on a rampage. Just kidding it's not that bad...yet.

Day 1 of the detox really wasn't that bad. Obviously because it's Day 1. My biggest concern was what to put in my coffee this morning. Coffee is a must when you've got two kids and a dog to keep entertained all day. Especially when said children and dog decide to all fit together in a queen size bed with my husband and I at 3 in the morning. Fun times. Honestly though coffee without sugar wasn't as bad as I expected. I can't stand even the thought of black coffee so I added a bit of organic half and half, a spoonful of coconut oil, and a dash of cinnamon.

Seriously why haven't I been using cinnamon? It was the theme today and soooooo yummy.

We had cinnamon and garlic pork chops tonight with roasted Brussels sprouts. I wish I had gotten a picture of it, but seriously we all just inhaled it. Tomorrow there shall be pictures.

Tonight as I'm typing this out in a hurry because Ethan's got to wake up stupid early in the morning and Lincoln won't let anyone put him down at the moment, I feel pretty good. No adverse symptoms to report. No terrible cravings. I'm optimistic about the whole thing. We'll see how that goes later on this week.

Wish me luck! Give me some pointers if you've completed the detox before.