21DSD Day 2

So I'm honestly not really feeling it today. I'm not having cravings, more I just to emotionally eat. Which is probably just as bad. No worse.

Lincoln was woken up at 2:00 am by Ethan rolling him over because he was coughing in his sleep and Ethan thought he was choking. Sweet that he was trying to save his son's life (so he thought?) butttttt then Link decided it was time to wake up and play. Yayyyyyy. With Ethan having to leave for work at 4:30 am and me being the nice wife that I am, I got my warm and cozy self out of bed and took the baby into the living room so that Daddy could sleep. What I thought would be a quick "Oh look these toys are cool, but I'd rather nurse and fall asleep" thing turned into an hour and a half of Link playing in his playpen while I tried read my Kindle and not to pass out from exhaustion. I'm stupid. I should've just slept in the living room while he played.

Anyways, once we were finally in bed around 3:30, Lincoln started to get more and more uncomfortable. Pretty sure he's finally cutting his first tooth because I got bit 3 times last night {How can it hurt that much without him having teeth?! I'm totally scared for what's to come.}and that's never happened before. Plus he now has a fever. Due to the fever, or the pain in his poor baby gums, or because he really just hates me, we were awake about every 45 minutes for the rest of the night until we both gave up and just woke up around 8:00.

Like a zombie I trudged to the kitchen to make myself a nice, hot, BIG cup of joe. Only apparently I made it wrong or something because the outcome was a cup of sludge that couldn't be fixed with copious amounts of coconut milk creamer and sugar...because that's not allowed on the dumb detox. And I will be damned if I give up on the 2nd day. I hate to admit it, but I am terrible at making coffee. It's such a simple thing to do and yet I can never get the formula right. It's always either way too strong or too weak when I make it. That's why on days with my husband makes me coffee...it's always a good day. For everyone involved.

We ran out of vanilla extract, and we're running low on green-tipped bananas because well, they're delicious. I'm a weirdo because I actually have always preferred green bananas. Once they've turned completely yellow they're too ripe for me. Once they get the brown spots it's time to make banana bread or toss them. Or now make baby food :-) For those of you that have never done this detox, like half the recipes have vanilla of some sort and bananas. It's all about tricking your body into thinking you're getting sugar when you're really not.

By the end of the day I was feeling so defeated and exhausted that by the time dinner rolled around I honestly didn't care about the detox anymore. I wanted to order a pizza just for the simple fact that I could barely function anymore. We knew that wasn't an option for either one of us so instead we tried to figure out
how we could stick to our new diet without having to spend time in the kitchen. Ethan made a pot of coffee just so that we could think enough about food.

After a good 30 minutes of debating what to do I grabbed a cup of coffee (at 6:00 pm so let's hope that doesn't come back to bite me in the butt tonight) and found some willpower. Instead of going out with a sick kid and two irritable and drained adults I grabbed my go-to paleo foods when I can't think of anything else:  bacon and eggs. Our family's tradition is Taco Tuesdays and I knew Aiden would be expecting a taco of some sort. So we had a random quick breakfast for dinner. Aiden got his breakfast tacos. I had 2 eggs, 2 pieces of bacon, and half of a chicken breast. Ethan had eggs and tuna which smelled absolutely awful, but he ate it while I just stared with my nose wrinkled.

I'm proud of myself for not giving in and just saying fuck it. I really do want to succeed and make it the whole 21 days without a cheat. I'm sure the days are going to get harder before they get better so I might as well embrace the suck. Hopefully Lincoln will sleep tonight and tomorrow will be better. For some added inspiration and motivation I will be spending the evening watching videos from PaleoCon. I'm super interested in learning about all things paleo, especially when it comes to kids - which is one of the topics for tonight. Sign up if you're interested too!